Let me start off by saying that I am not fat. I do not have a complex. I do not think I am fat. For the industry I am often considered to be fat. So, now you know. My body is actually quite lovely. My measurements are 36D, 25,40. I have a tiny middle with … Continue reading On Being a Fat Stripper
So a while back I failed to update this blog for the better part of a year. I wanted to write during that dark time but I could not. I was terrified that someone might discover it and thus me. This is the first time in my life I have been afraid to write, to … Continue reading Why I Stopped Writing Last Year
The Postmodern Intersection of Lesbian and Transgender Politics By Widow Centauri San Diego State University Department of Sociology INTRODUCTION TO THE PROBLEM There is little awareness in the mainstream regarding trans-issues. One of the major issues surrounding the lack of awareness is the issue of what to call transgender people. The problem is that we … Continue reading The Paper I’m Presenting at the PSA
I generally think that coming out is a bad idea. Anytime you have to articulate your identity you are giving credence to the ideology of heteronormative behavior. When was the last time someone came out to you as straight? Coming out presupposes a world of coerced conformity. A world where nuclear, heterosexual, two person, monogamous … Continue reading Coming Out
The night before thanksgiving I was settling down for a bottle of wine and 30 library books when the phone rang. It was a young relative in tears. Seems this person was chased out by zirs father in a tirade of bigoted, homophobic slander. I drove to the suburbs to rescue this teen, certain that … Continue reading Thanksgiving is when you find out what your family is made of
Ah Fuck I am so broke that I am counting my change. I am so broke that I am blogging about counting my change. I am far to broke to be comfortable. If you are a regular client, if you have been wanting to play, if you just like my writing and would like to … Continue reading I wrote this two days ago, hoped something would give, now that it hasn’t I present to you: BROKE!
Fuck the sun I feel like I am hung-over. All day I was in the sun. Not on a boat or at the beach but in a coffee house with windows, and driving across town. Just generally exposed to the sunlight. I feel beaten up. At 1:30 I was sobbing in the Kinko’s parking lot … Continue reading Fuck The Sun!
I went out to pick up a pizza last night and ended up getting kicked out of the pizza place. When I called for delivery they explained to me that it would take almost two ours but I could pick it up in 20 minutes. I was fucking hungry so I said, “I’ll come get … Continue reading No Pizza, No Beer, No Politics
I am sitting in a coffee house in San Francisco. I’m reading Foucault and sipping matte but switching to Guinness. Usually, in socal, when people see what I am reading they back away intimidated. Here I get “wow – that is heavy stuff” and a conversation about sociology, drugs, yoga, and politics. The people behind … Continue reading “Men’s” Sexuality
I have mentioned here before that I am in school. Lots of people have been asking how school is going and what my thesis is about so I thought I would write a little something for you to knawsh on. My thesis topic is gender variant neologisms (GVN). A neologism is a new word. The … Continue reading My Thesis — A Little Info For The Curious